Got Vision?

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Backpacking in the Maze, a Wild and Rugged Region in the Heart of the Canyonlands, 05/1972

So, life can be difficult sometimes…and a bit mysterious, right?  And when I don’t have a clear vision for what I’m doing, it can get downright frustrating.

A few years ago, my hubby and I (finally) agreed that we would homeschool our kids.  (By the way, this post is not about whether you should homeschool or not…so don’t stop reading there if you don’t!)  I had about zero desire to teach our kids at home at first.  I like my alone time…I won’t lie! As much as I love our kids, I’m a much better mom and human being overall if I get some time away.  Yep, classic introvert.

But, then I started to pray about it and slowly God started to give me HIS vision for our family and kids’ education.

For kindergarten/pre-school, we’ve basically just “done life”: counting daddy’s vitamins, reading signs and sounding out letters while driving, doing some workbooks here and there, letting them play with magnet letters on the fridge while I cook…and so forth.

But now that we’re approaching the legal requirements of our state for our oldest to enter first grade, I started to panic…”what am I doing?”…”what if I screw it up?”…”what if I can’t figure out what to teach?”…”what if weeks go by and we don’t have a formal lesson?”…and so the hamster wheel of uncertainty and fear spun around.

I told Steve about my uncertainties and all-over-the-place worries.  (I’m so thankful he just listened and didn’t reply at that moment!  Thanks honey!)

I was searching information for our local public school when the thought dawned on me: “Hey, maybe I should pray!”  So, I did.  And, I asked my girlfriends to pray too (thanks, you awesome warriors!)   Within the hour, He swarmed me with peace.  He gave me an answer…yes, His vision for us is to be a homeschooling family.  And over the next few days, He gave me one more little step to take…just one at a time.  Step 1: Yes, homeschool.  Step 2: Use a curriculum. Step 3: Check that book I have been reading and love for suggestions.  Step 4: Research options.  Step 5: Discuss top option with the hubs and pray.  Step 6: Manage to wait until the paycheck has cleared before I rush to order said curriculum and obsessively check the mail everyday until it arrives!  And so on…

I am completely amazed that God has brought me from an attitude of complete dread and fear to a place of renewed excitement.  And the way He got me there was to give me vision.  He spoke into my little life…gave me an answer…and is providing the steps one-by-one.  Vision…that’s what I needed.

“Where there is no vision, the people perish…” (Proverbs 29:18a KJV)

Yes!  That’s it!  And I especially love how The Message version phrases this same verse…

“If people can’t see what God is doing, they stumble all over themselves; But when they attend to what he reveals, they are most blessed.” (Proverbs 29:18 MSG)

I was stumbling all over my fear of lack and inadequacies…But when I paid attention to what God wanted to reveal to me, He gave me what I needed and I feel that blessing not just in my attitude, but especially in the path we are now walking.

What decisions are you facing in your life right now?  It may have nothing to do with your child’s education…or it might.  But whatever it is, stop and listen to what God has to say about it. Don’t get caught in the torrent of fear.  Let Him speak into your situation and give you the next step to take.

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