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The Stillness Grey

Tompkins Sq. Park

Fallen leaves embrace dark corners outside the ground floor.
Pushed aside, off the trail; product of a few, fenced trees.
They are left to be forgotten amidst a concrete and civilized world
Until carried away by the promised rain.
Layers of dust removed; purity replaces former adulteration
Penetrating even the most shadowed spaces,
As living waters scatter all dead.
Solace remains, leaving only the stillness grey.

She recalls her forgone, hurried days,
Bearing burdens too heavy,
With corners of life un-swept,
At last halted in the foothills of dark soil,
Crisp air, with Flatirons in view.
Then, inviting her coming rain and sanctification.
In thoughtful retrospection of once swaying days
She mourns years lost for ignorance of the stillness grey.

Unaware of acute observation,
They hurry to go slow.
Willing captives behind the glass, noosed with neckties,
Bear minds bent on capital gain and vocational pursuits.
In attempted control of a concrete world
They assure accuracy and diligence in the void.
Lost in the deception of formula;
Blind to the stillness grey.

She dwells in the rain;
Her silent grey retreat of flowing tranquility.
Sodden, she gazes through concrete and glass.
Hand held out now, turning in the rain.
Cupping and releasing droplets.
She watches the rushing onslaught
Behind the glass where droplets stop.
She then breathes the stillness grey.


I wrote this poem in a college poetry class, where I learned that I LOVE to write poetry. It’s been ten years since I put this piece to paper, but this message behind a young woman discovering her identity, no longer defined by her past, is still vibrant and living in my heart! My prayer for you today is that you will set aside what compartment your past may try to stuff you in, and instead look to Jesus, in the stillness listen for Him to give you the definition of who you are to Him!

I’ve just finished writing a book called Refining Identity, a Bible study that takes a look at what DOES and what DOES NOT define us. I’m in the process of having this resource published and I want to invite you to partner with me to see this book come to life! Please visit HERE for more information on this book that is my heart’s message and how you can be involved! God bless!

(And, for those of you who are scratching your heads wondering…the Flatirons are a section of the Rocky Mountains overlooking Boulder, CO.  I spent a few years in the Denver area and had one particularly life-changing moment, meeting with God in the stillness on those foothills.)

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The skipped commandment……..

I felt God woke me this morning at 5:30 am to tell me something. It was that sometimes we dont pay attention to the smallest of things. He gave me John 12.47-50, “If anyone hears does not keep them, I do not judge him; for I did not come to judge the world but to save the world. The one who rejects me and does not receive my words has a judge; the word that I have spoken will judge him on the last day. For I have not spoken on my own authority, but the Father who sent me has himself given me a commandment—what to say and what to speak. And I know that his commandment is eternal life. What I say, therefore, I say as the Father has told me.”

I have found that many times we come to this text to prove the fact that Jesus did all of the things He did and said all of the words He said not with His own authority, but with the Authority of God, the Father. One thing that is odd to me is that we skip right over that Jesus says,”that His [God the father’s] command is everlasting life.” This is huge, With the authority of God the father, and following what the Father tells Him to do he says into existence that God the Father’s command is everlasting life.
Think about it, God’s commandments are the laws we have to live by to be in relationship with Him, right? If He didn’t set the bar high enough with the first ten, then over 300 commandments, try this one on for size. He wants us to have everlasting life. I don’t think God ever thought that we could pull that one off. What I think is that God, like the perfect parent that His, wants to be with us, his children, forever. Being the righteous and omniscient God that He is knows that if we come into his presence in the unrighteous state that we are in, we would be annihilated. The problem is that the debt that we owe because of our sin is too great for us to pay. But because Jesus fits the bill, He pays our bill, and then purifies our unrighteousness so that we may obey this commandment.

Everlasting life, that’s a pretty cool one to be a part of. Most of us look at the whole washing of our hands and some of the ritual commandments as not exciting, but I can get really excited about that one.

Remember, God didn’t give us the commandments to boss us around or to toy with us and laugh when we missed the mark. He was showing us that only someone perfect like Himself, or Himself could come before Him without being annihilated. It simply points out to all that we need a savior, that we can’t do it without His help. That’s all he ever wanted was for us to reach to Him so He could love on us. Remember that all came possible by the Son, Jesus, Jeshua, the Messiah, dieing for us.
This last part is for anyone who has not been born again, John 3:3-6 ESV

“Jesus answered him, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born again he cannot see the kingdom of God.” Nicodemus said to him, “How can a man be born when he is old? Can he enter a second time into his mother’s womb and be born?” Jesus answered, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born of water and the Spirit, he cannot enter the kingdom of God. That which is born of the flesh is flesh, and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit.”

If you do not know the Lord Jesus as your Lord, please take a moment search deep in your heart and listen for the sweet voice of the Holy Spirit. If you hear God asking you to be close to him, to come to him so he can love on you, you must become born again. How you do that is simply in your own words, confessing that you can’t live up to perfection, you are flawed, and asking him to purify you through the blood of Jesus. One other crucial part is asking Him to take the reigns from here, let His will be done. Surrender your will for his, as in Jesus’s prayer, your will be done on Earth as it is Heaven. Accept it, embrace it, enjoy the Love of God. I pour blessings out over you and ask God to pour His love on you as you live in His will from this day forward.

P.S. you will never get it right, you will never be perfect, you will continue to sin, but if you always come back to Him asking for His will those sins will become fewer and fewer and you will continue to become more like him. God Bless.

Originally written 4-15-2010