I’ll admit I’m not so savvy about the options of phones out there…especially when it comes to comparing features and all. But one thing I do know about my phone is that the speaker phone setting leaves a lot to be desired.
So, when my husband is calling from an out-of-town job and the kids are talking all over each other with tumbling thoughts and zero-context subjects, adding the speaker phone feature to the mix is downright stressful. I’m going between speaker phone (to let them have their say and hear Daddy’s voice) and the standard mic settings so I can “translate” what’s being said.
In the midst of the annoyance…and missing him while he’s away…we’re all just so desperate to hear his voice, to share our hearts. Yet this speaker issue gets in the way. The VERY THING that should be a tool connecting us in our time apart is making the whole situation more frustrating and more isolating.
It makes me wonder what other “speaker phones” I have lying around that keep me from hearing an even more important Voice. What so-called “tools” are out there in my daily life that rather than enhance my walk with God, actually hinder it?
After all, if my relationship with God (as with any genuine relationship) is based in regular communication, then a hindrance to that communication is actually a hindrance to the QUALITY of the relationship, right?
Is the Bible devotional I’m doing out of a sense of obligation getting in the way? Am I doing it to check things off a list rather than sit and have a “real” conversation with my Daddy?
Am I just so busy doing the things He has called me to that I can’t sit still long enough to hear Him?
Are there thoughts and subjects tumbling over themselves in my mind…worries and concerns and cares of this world invading the time that I just want to spend enjoying Him?
What keeps me from hearing His voice clearly?
What keeps you from hearing?
So, yesterday was a pretty terrible day for me. Nothing external that happened was bad necessarily. It was mostly just me…emotions running high and hormones running everywhere. I was absolutely NOT at my best and I knew it. (Anyone relating here??)
But this morning, something miraculous happened! I got a fresh start! I woke up before my alarm (miraculous in and of itself!), got to snuggle with my hubby, get a shower while the house was quiet, and have some time in the Word and actually listening for God’s voice in the (still) quiet, pre-dawn hours. After a while, I put on some worship music and listened through my earphones. Just minutes later, my son emerged, fully dressed. Despite my crabbiness from the previous day, he came over to me. And despite how I’d felt the day before, I tapped the seat and he climbed up to cuddle with me while we shared the headphones.
What a different start to the day! What a needed change! “The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies are new every morning…” (Lamentations 3:22-23)
I got to experience those new mercies this morning, even though I didn’t do a thing to deserve it. God is just good…that’s it.
I could have started this day regretting how yesterday went. But all that would have served to accomplish is assure that this day would be a new regret. But, instead, today my goal is to focus on God TODAY, letting go of yesterday and not worrying about tomorrow. Today is what I have…and Today is full of His new mercies.